"Now And Then" by Bodhi Smith

 
every
now and then,
there she is 
under the milky way
calling out to me;
come, join her...
i try and try and try, but
i just cannot reach her
every then and now, i dream
we touch, 
we embrace,
we kiss,
we know (each other);
we are love.
so as i sleep, 
i smile 
every 
now 
and 
then
 
 
MY THOUGHTS 
Now and then I get lonely, though I'm not alone. I look to what I have, and not what I'm missing, though I do miss her. Still I smile, give my doggie a loving pat on the head, and walk down our path to where we need to go ― Bodhi, Now And Then
 
"Now and Then" is defined by Merriam-Webster as:
1. from time to time; occasionally
2. existing both in the present and in the past
 
Here you see the rustic, yet very photogenic Weber Homestead in the rolling hills of the Palouse, which is close to the town of Pullman in eastern Washington. Unfortunately, the house is no longer inhabitable, though it's miraculously still standing in the same spot it was built 123 years ago in 1901! Regardless, through all the years, the radiant heavens above have remained the same constant in the sky, glowing down on the farm as they always have both "Now and Then"...eternity happens under the stars--the eyes in the sky who bear witness to it all...
 
Scenes like this make me reflect deeply about the meaning of life, the universe, and everything. "Now and Then" I see just how similar I am to the beautiful subjects which I photograph...

My god, as Mother Nature and Father Time weather me unforgivingly, I can only hope I grow old as gracefully as this home has ― Bodhi, Now And Then
 
Like this house, I was also created by the connection among people--without connection, none of us would ever exist. And like this house, I've lived through my prime and glory days with my purpose being able to help people live a better life. And finally like this house, I'm entering my days of gradual decline, until I'll return as dust back to the universe...it's the grand cycle of life which we all live, which all things live through over the course of their life...
 
However as spiritual beings, we differ greatly from inanimate objects like the Weber Homestead. We have the capacity to love and be loved. To find the deeper meaning of happiness in the eyes of another beautiful soul, the one with whom we connect without knowing why, just knowing our love is so deep that we'd do anything for them. The one who elevates us to another level of completeness and consciousness, our true twin flame, the ultimate love of our life, the love we carry in our heart until the very end of eternity,,,
 
Now and then, he was amazed he was still standing, and really did not need to buy any extra supplies...he had everything he needed: his health, his doggie, his hope...the only thing he was missing was her ― Bodhi, Now And Then
 
"Now and Then" I wonder if I had found her and let her go. Or I wonder maybe she found me and I was not paying attention. Or I wonder, is it that we just have yet to meet in this life on this planet?
 
I do not have the answer, all I know is that time is running out for me in this life. I don't know how many years, or days, or even breaths I might have left in this wonderful life I've lived...and it has been a wonderful life for me so far. But I cannot help but wonder if it could be so much better, so much richer, so much more complete with her finally in my arms, looking into my eyes, and seeing our worlds meld into one...
 
So where the hell is she? I'm tired of being lonely, though I'm not alone since my doggie Besos is forever and always at my side...still, "Now and Then" I just wish she was here, right here with me, together, giggling and smiling, hugging and kissing, loving and living as one until the end of days for us...until that day though, I'll be content with all I'm blessed to have, making each moment count, cherishing every breath I get, for nothing is guaranteed. Because I know exactly what I have here and now, and my life is good, really good...

When you cannot have exactly want you want, be happy with what you have, focus on the positive instead of what is not possible right now...Remain vigilant with hope and continue to dream, believe that one day you will finally have that which you have always wanted ― Bodhi, Now And Then
 
 
Here's the newest song by the most famous and successful band of all time, The Beatles. Released on November 2nd, 2023 it was dubbed "the last Beatles song", and appears on a double A-side single, paired with a new stereo remix of the band's first single, "Love Me Do" (1962), with the two serving as "bookends" to the band's long and glorious history...
 
"Now And Then" by The Beatles. is a psychedelic soft rock love ballad that John Lennon wrote and recorded around 1977 as a solo home demo, but he left it unfinished. After Lennon's death in 1980, the song was considered as a potential third Beatles reunion single for their 1995–1996 retrospective project The Beatles Anthology. Instead, it was shelved for nearly three decades, until it was completed by his surviving bandmates Paul McCartney and Ringo Starr, using overdubs and guitar tracks by George Harrison (who died in 2001) from the abandoned 1995 sessions...The final version features additional lyrics by Paul McCartney, with Lennon's voice being extracted from the original demo using state-of-the-art machine-learning-assisted audio restoration technology. The song received acclaim from critics, who felt it was a worthy finale for the Beatles. It topped the charts in the United Kingdom, Germany, and Austria, and reached the top ten in Australia, Belgium, Canada, Ireland, the Netherlands, Sweden, Switzerland, and the United States.
 
With it's loving and sentimental lyrics, plus having the same exact name as my impression today, it's the perfect accompaniment to connect music with the meaning of my impression and blog today... "Now And Then" by The Beatles. ... (just click on any of the words in the powder blue links to listen to the tune and watch the video) ...

(One, two, three)
I know it's true
It's all because of you
And, if I make it through
It's all because of you
And, now and then
If we must start again
Well, we will know for sure
That I will love you
Now and then
I miss you
Oh, now and then
I want you to be there for me
Always to return to me
I know it's true
It's all because of you
And, if you go away
I know you'll never stay
Now and then
I miss you
Oh, now and then
I want you to be there for me
I know it's true
It's all because of you
And, if I make it through
It's all because of you
(Good one)
 
 
Released in June of 2018, this next song is from the late Dutch-Tanzanian singer/songwriter/poet Alex Who? (Alex Dekeuken) who was also part of the duo, Dear Humans  with Corey Epstein. Unfortunately, Alex Who? passed away unexpectedly at only 24 years old (way too young, way too soon) after suffering cardiac arrest while performing at the Coachella Music Festival in 2022...This tune of hers has heartfelt lyrics about passing through an awful relationship with someone who only cared about themself and used you to get what they wanted--but now you're a much stronger and wiser soul for having survived the whole ordeal... "Then And Now" by Alex Who?. ... (just click on any of the words in the powder blue links to listen to the tune and watch the video) ...

There was a time you pulled a wool over my eyes
March me in line like a lamb to sacrifice
I did your bidding, thought you were the one
Now it's too late, all the damage is done
You brought me right back to square one, square one
Shattered pieces on the ground where I fell
That was then and this is now
If you can, tell something's different 
And I'm not the same
I was the victim washed up in your wake
And I can't deny I nearly drowned
That was then and this is now
That was then and this is now
There was a day when my heart was like your slave
Wasted away until I made my great escape
I did your bidding, thought you were the one
Now it's too late, all the damage is done
You brought me right back to square one, square one
Shattered pieces on the ground where I fell
That was then and this is now
If you can, tell something's different
And I'm not the same
I was the victim washed up in your wake
And I can't deny I nearly drowned
That was then and this is now
That was then and this is now
Shattered pieces on the ground where I fell
That was then and this is now
If you can, tell something's different
And I'm not the same
I was the victim washed up in your wake
And I can't deny I nearly drowned
That was then and this is now
That was then and this is now
That was then and this is now
 
I can't wait until I finally find her, and she finds me and says, 'Oh baby it's you!' And we can transform into the feathers covering each others wings and fly away into the heavens together ― Bodhi, Now And Then
 
 
 
THE WEBER HOMESTEAD
Embracing life's turbulences is easy as acknowledging that you're still standing after it's all said and done, still able to breath and take that next breath and enjoy life, still able to continue to make every moment count  ― Bodhi, Now And Then
 
Pictured here is the old rustic house on the Weber homestead in the rolling hills of the Palouse farmlands in eastern Washington state...this house was built in 1901 by the Weber family on top of the old foundation and original oak tree supports of the log cabin first built on the property in 1863...

The land was earned by the Weber family by participating in the National Homestead Act of 1863 which awarded 160 acres to farmers as a huge incentive to those who were willing to move westward, settle on, and cultivate the newer parts of America at the time...

The Webers still own the land, still own the original deed issued by the federal government through the Homestead Act in 1863...and they still actively farm the land, and they still reside on the property in a newer house (built in the 1960s) a few hundred meters away from the original homestead pictured here...

The old Weber Homestead is still standing despite all of the years of father time and the extreme weather of mother nature acting on it adversely. It's amazing, still existing despite the fact it has not been maintained, updated, refurbished, or repaired since the 1960's...

It's a majestic symbol to me and others of how something that has fortitude, because it's based on a solid foundation can keep on standing, no matter what the hardships. How it can keep on going, even though it was abandoned for a new house...and though it has never been forgotten about in any way, it has still been left alone to still stand by itself with no one occupying it in the fields, left to to fend for itself and live out a lonely life without anyone inside it again...but still it goes on...

This house has outlasted four generations already, and is well on its way to remaining standing through a fifth generation...so admirable, and so beautiful surrounded by the green farmlands in the rolling hills of the Palouse of eastern Washington...

My god, as mother nature and father time weather me unforgivingly, I can only hope I grow old as gracefully as this home has...

*********and please note...********

Karla Weber, is the current resident of the property and the great granddaughter of her family members who built this house (and in which her grandmother was born). She is supper kind and very forthcoming, and she truly only asks that visitors, especially photographers, respect the family wishes and do not trespass onto their property (without permission first) because foot traffic will trample the fields they have around the old homestead and take away from their livelihood of farming and result in lost money in the damaged crops from foot traffic, plants easily damaged like chickpeas/garbanzo beans and young wheat (growing in the picture) are very delicate...

So, please abide by the erected ropes and signs and fences at the edges of her property and only photograph from the roads, and not from the fields around the house...you can get beautiful views of the house from all angles using various lenses from like a 24-70mm, and a 70mm-200mm, and a 200-500mm...please respect her wishes as she dislikes having to take criminal action against all of the people who chose to trespass and violate her simple wishes of keeping off their property...
 
After all the hardships we face, always love is still standing there before us, it's people who walk away  ― Bodhi, Now And Then
 
 
 
SOME APROPOS QUOTES
She was a tornado that blew through his life, destroying everything he held dear. But when the skies cleared and she was all gone, he was still standing. he was still breathing and knew he needed his life devastated so he could move on and rebuild his world so much better ― Bodhi, Now And Then
 
Find me under the Milky Way, soul bare and heart open. Let me swim in your spirit past the sentry of time and space that stands in the way and let me love you...pull away the unworthiness etched upon your shores by those too blind to see your value and let me breathe you into the depths of myself in appreciation of all that you are. Show me your solitude as I show you mine; all the parts that ache and yearn for more. Let me see the facets of you longing to be traced by understanding hands full of reverence. You have the taste of my destiny on your lips and an essence that has swam in my blood since time began; a compass that navigated me wordlessly like a north star back to a safe harbor. You, the home of the soul I longed a lifetime for, the lyrics to a melody I hummed before learning all of your words...wishing only that I could give you my eyes so that you could see your own brilliant unfolding and witness your landscape that has to me become so precious. You, who comprehend the foreign language I speak that fell on deaf ears for an eternity, it’s tongues finally heard fully quenching my parched and misunderstood soil that once stood solitary and barren against the tides...planting 1000 kisses upon your naked heart in worship and in awe of your existence in this universe, I am replete with joy. If a million stars fell from the skies whispering their wishful promises into my open ear, not a single one would I entreat to change a single layer of you. Let us stretch our fingers towards eternity together wrapped around dreams and laughter, souls bare and hearts open ― C. Ara Campbell (modifications by Bodhi)
 
My love, It’s me....I know you may not recognize me yet, but I know I’ve been on your mind a lot. I know you dream about me at night and wish upon every star that I was right there beside you. I know because I do the same....I want you to know that I am real, even though I know you doubt it a million times a day. I want you to know that I do exist. Maybe our souls have even met before in our travels on this planet, like I know they’ve done in many lives before. I want to say that I’ve been busy and that’s why I haven’t found you yet. I know, that sounds so cliché. I’ve been evolving and growing in new directions, learning and expanding along the way....See, I want to be the best version of myself that I can be when we are finally together, which we will be, please know that. I want to be whole for myself so I can be whole with you. I want to embrace my passions and my purpose so I can inspire you to embrace yours....I have so much baggage in my basement and shadows I need to dance with first. I’m slaying my dragons, climbing my mountains and waltzing with my demons. I’m not trying to be perfect because there’s no such thing, but there’s just some things I need to see to first. I know we’ll still have dark times we need to walk together, but I’ll be ready for them and we will face them united....I will find you and when I do it will be because I have done my work and am able to love you to the depths of my being, like we both deserve. I want to be able to embrace all of you, every facet and every layer, every shade that makes up your vibrant tapestry. I want all of you, every part you’ve been taught wasn’t loveable or that you needed to hide, I will kiss with reverent lips. You are worthy of a soul deep love, one who knows who they are and what they have when they stand beside you. I do too, so I heal the parts of myself that keep me from receiving it fully so I can open wide to your heart....I’m not asking you to wait for me. Live your life fully until I am able to catch up and live it by your side. Choose to celebrate each day and make the most of each moment. Embrace the wild creativity that flows in your veins, laugh out loud at all the silly things that tickle you and go on tons of adventures. I want to hear all about them when I find you and we are on the path to forging new ones. Until then, I will be loving you from afar and knowing in my heart that one day, I will be able to choose to live that life with you fully. I know we get what we are ready for, and I’m not ready for you yet. If I’m not by your side right now, it means I have deeper in my own seas to dive so I can dive endlessly into yours...Don’t give up on me, my love. I’ll see you soon....Love, Me  ― C. Ara Campbell (modifications by Bodhi)
 
When pain arrives, it shifts your perspective on everything around you. The days grow darker, the nights stretch further, and you cannot, for the life of you, find the light through the fog. Everyday moments that were once beautiful to you now appear colourless and dull, and those songs that once sang full through your lungs now serve only to remind you of the better days far behind you...But don't lose hope. Through these dark times, you must simply learn to look harder for the light. It will come to you in flashes of unexpected beauty: the helping hand of a friend, a compliment given or received, a quiet moment of inspiration or peace. Collect these tiny fragments of light wherever they come, until at last your sky is so full of stars, you are finally able to see the way forward ― Beau Taplin, Here at Dawn
 
Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment. The way is not in the sky. The way is in the heart. When you realize how perfect everything is, you will tilt your head back and laugh at the sky ― Gautama Siddhartha Buddha, Sayings of Buddha
 
If I'm alone, I will look up at the sky, and feel certain that loneliness is a lie, because the universe is there to keep me company ― Paulo Coelho, Manuscript Found in Accra
 
Never give up on something that you can't go a day without thinking about ― Winston S. Churchill 
 
The biggest lesson I learned this year is to not force anything; conversations, friendships, relationships, attention, love...anything forced is just not worth fighting for. Whatever flows flows, what crashes crashes. It is what it is ― Keanu Reeves
 
The sky itself reels with love. you are the sky my spirit circles in, the love inside love ― Jalaluddin Rumi, Music and Silence of the Heart

 
 
SPECIFICS ABOUT THIS PHOTO
Now and Then I just wish she was here, right here with me, giggling and smiling, hugging and kissing, loving and living until the end of days for us  ― Bodhi, Now And Then
 
This impression was created on June 8th, 2021 as I stood alongside a dirt road shooting the Weber Homestead under starry skies on the rolling hills of the Palouse farmlands in Eastern Washington state near the town of Pullman...To get the effects you see here, I needed to capture two photos, all-the-while knowing later I would be merging them together into one single composition using layers in Adobe Photoshop CC...
 
In my photography, I always use filters to create longer exposure effects, saturate colors naturally, and balance the light in my composition in-camera...I often use as many as four filters at time, and I always use at least one filter in my completed impressions...
 
And to get the effects and balance I was looking for in this composition, I used two ProgreyUSA Filters. along with the ProgreyUSA G-120Z Antarctic Magnetic Holder. to secure these filters to my Nikon D850 with a Nikon Nikkor 16-24mm f/2.8 lens. ... 
 
Camera Settings for Weber Homestead and grassy hills: 
f/11@22mm for 11 seconds, ISO-64. Image taken on 06-08-2021 just after the sun set at 9:39pm PST. I used a ProgreyUSA 0.9 GND Aurora Filter. to bring the top third of the composition down 3 stops and help darken the brighter sky, creating a better in-camera balance in the overall image with the foreground of the image, especially to help permit details in the shadows amongst all the wooden planks in the rustic homestead to come out better in the exposure ...coupled with a ProgreyUSA 3.0ND Antarctic Magnetic Filter. to stop down the image 10 stops and permit for the long 11 second exposure at f/11 which helps to naturally saturate all the red, green, & blue (RGB) hues in the image...
 
Camera Settings for night sky with the Milky Way: 
For this separate exposure of the stars, I used my Nikon D850 with a Nikon Nikkor 16-24mm f/2.8 lens. combined with a vixen optics polarie star tracker with tripod...this permitted me to be able to capture a much longer exposure of the stars and not have any star trails, which also gives such beautiful enrichment to all the colors in the night sky while at the same time permitting a much lower iso setting and thus so much less noise (f/4@16mm for 420secs, iso-400 at 2:22am on 06-09-2021), and no filters were necessary in this star exposure, so none were used...
 
The two images were then merged together using layers in Adobe Photoshop CC...
 
I wish to openly thank my sponsors who have always supported me through both the good and bad times...for truly this long exposure impression would not be possible without the use of my Induro PHQ3 Series 5-way Panhead with an Induro (now Benro) Stealth Carbon Fiber Tripod. in combination with the ProgreyUSA Filters. which I use with every photo I take...
 
If nothing else...if I open my eyes, if I hope, if I cry, if I think, if I sigh, if I giggle, if I dance, if I love, if I breathe, then I have lived a full days worth of life...nothing is wasted, nothing ― Bodhi, If
 
I don't want you to just be into my photography, instead, I'd much rather you take a journey into my pictures, feel the impression I've created, feel it with all your senses ― Bodhi, My Photography
 
My photography is my way of keeping a diary ― Bodhi, My Diary
 
Contemplate without thinking. Be certain only in your uncertainty, content to be completely incomplete. Stop the rush. Slow down time. Breathe and notice. Slow down everything. Let it all be. Shut off the noise. Hush. Relax. Seize this higher moment. Reconnect. Feel and sense what surrounds you. Listen to all the colours of light whisper as they envelope you. See the melody and harmony that float about unnoticed. Taste the solitude of all this wonderment. Smell the beautiful silence. Now discover your peaceful serenity. Then, reach out and touch your faith with all your senses. This is my world. Awaken! ― Bodhi, My World
 
I leave you today wishing that bright joy 
and spiritual peace fill your life...
imploring you to make every moment count, 
no matter what, always and forever, 
for that is the only thing that truly matters... 
 
And above all else,
I hope this message and impression find you well.
 
Namaste,
Bodhi
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